I'm going to do better

Yes, I know I've said this in my last 2 entries. But seriously, I'm at the point where I need some outlet to vent or I am going straight to the looney bin. So what's been going on the last month? I've gotten a new temp job, where I've been for about 6 weeks now. In short, it sucks. OK, not really, but I am busy all the time and I resent not being able to be paid to study. I mean seriously, the nerve!

I decided that there is no way that I can keep up this schedule, maintain my sanity, and continue law school. My schoolwork is suffering badly b/c I just don't have the energy to keep up. 16 hour days are not the business. Add to that horrible mommy guilt over never seeing my son, and this situation just isn't working for me. Su and I originally decided that I would stick it out until January, but it turns out that my job will be over at the end of November - right around the time that we will be preparing to move and I will be studying for finals. We both (well, definitely me and hopefully Su too) think that is a good time to call it quits. I tried my hand at being Superwoman and I've come up short. Sometimes you have to realize that one plan isn't working and move on to the next.

On a law school front, Contracts and Torts are moving along fine. I had my first truly horrifying moment a couple weeks ago though. The first time that I EVER come to class not having read a single word of a single case, and I'm on call. Having to tell my professor that I was unprepared was the absolute worst. I sat there the whole time hoping that I could either disappear or fall through a hole in the floor. I haven't made that mistake again, and I've been making a total nuisance of myself in Contracts ever since.

Legal Writing on the other hand is the bane of my existence. A 1750 word memo, a quiz, a research log, and a flow chart -- all within a week of each other. Kill.Me.Now. It's hard to hate our professor b/c she's so sweet -- like, want her to be my grandma sweet. I had a conference in her office and it's one of those with framed pictures of cats on the wall, and some sort of babbling water machine. I fully expected her to offer me tea and scones. Sadly, there was no Earl Grey to be had. :-( Still, if that lady doesn't lighten up I may just run off screaming.

Judah is doing well, although we're on each other's crap lists this morning. I started the horrible habit of giving him a bottle in bed when he was sick last month. Do not ever do this! He now wakes multiple times a night wanting a bottle and will go back to sleep. Well last night I decided to nip this in the bud and started giving him bottles of water. Boy did he make us pay for that! Not a happy little man. I think tonight I'm going to check if he is getting teeth, or if he was just pissed at me.

In closing -- 1st birthday party pics!!!

I'm really bad at this

OK, so I know I suck at being a blogger. As I said in my last post though I'm pretty sure no one but my husband reads my poor little blog, so I probably wasn't missed.

So since my last post lots has happened. I started working (well, temping), and the J man went to daycare. :-( It is ridiculous how much I miss him but he does so well there and his Daycare Provider is the sweetest woman ever and just loves him to pieces. I literally got offered a job on a Friday and Judah needed to start daycare that Tuesday. It was no problem and she made room for him right away. Then, 2 weeks later, I realized that shuttling him around after daycare to my parents while I went to school was stressful for us all, so she agreed to keep him later twice a week. Miss Vee is really a Godsend and I'm trying to think of something to do for her to show her how much I appreciate her.

As far as the law school portion of this law school mama blog, class started 3 weeks ago and so far it is going really well. Torts is my favorite, followed by Contracts. Legal Writing is pretty much the bane of my existence. I have to say I haven't been studying as much as I did in my summer class but I'm determined to get back on track soon. Speaking of that other class -- I GOT AN A!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYYAYAY! The grade distribution came out recently and I noticed that there was only one other A in a class of 23, so I'm feeling pretty proud of myself. The downside is that I've realized that Professor Lazarus is pretty much the rocking-est professor on the planet, so we might've been a bit spoiled. It's rare to have a professor who is knowledgeable, funny, personable, demanding, etc. all rolled into one. I'm just waiting for the opportunity to take another one of his classes.

So, that's all that's going on. I'm updating this blog when I should be reading negligence cases for class in a few hours, and preparing for being a working mom, law school mom, and single mom when my husband goes to Europe for two weeks on Friday. I gotta say, I'm kinda looking forward to it being just me and Judah. I hope that it is as peaceful and fun as I'm planning, and doesn't end up being me putting out fires for 2 weeks.

In closing, some Judah Bean for your viewing pleasure.

Sorry It's Been So Long!

I figured no one but my husband reads my poor little infant-sized blog, so I wouldn't be missed too much considering he already knows all the stuff I write about here. He insists that he likes reading it and I should update it though (LOVE HIM!), so here goes.

It has been a crazy month. The last couple weeks of class were good, I enjoyed it as usual (Professor L rocks!), but I was starting to get school-fatigue. I felt incredibly guilty about it because I am living my dream, right?! Then it scared me because it was only an 8 week course, and the fall semester will be twice that long. I think it was more all the running around I had to do though. Because we share a car I would have to drop Su off at work, which meant an hour total driving time and Judah getting antsy halfway through the drive back home. Then home for a few hours, getting in playtime, lunch and an afternoon nap, before I had to get him ready to go to one of my parents houses so that I could go to class. After class pick him up, then head home. Get him bathed, fed, and off to bed. Then studying while exhausted. It was a lot. But we all managed to make it through unscathed and my grades stayed up. The final was difficult but I'm pretty sure I did well. I won't know my grade until August 4th, but I'm confident I did well and am just happy on a break and enjoying the summer!!

We've been having a blast -- we took J to the zoo, a family reunion, and today we are headed to the Children's Museum. Since last month he has started crusing all over the place, and we are keeping the video camera very close since we're on "First Step" watch. He's also saying da da da da, but he hasn't used it in reference to the appropriate person, so we're also on "First Word" watch! It's so exciting to see him growing up!! I just want to squeeze and kiss him all the time because I'm just loving him and this age so much, but he is too busy to let mommy hold him too long :-(

I'll be back

I know I need to update, but I'm too tired to be witty.

Check back soon...

7 out of 8

I was so sure that I had gotten an 8 out of 8 on this quiz. Sadly it wasn't to be. I can take some small comfort in the fact that only 3 of us (out of 23) got 7s and only one person got an 8, but I wanted that one person to be me! Missing that question was purely a function of missing class on Wednesday, because I didn't have a full understanding of what residency by a US citizen in a foreign country meant for diversity jurisdiction, but I suppose it could have been worse. All in all folks seem to have done better on this quiz, but there were still people getting 3s, 4s, and 5s. Is it mean to wonder how they are managing to score so low? I probably am jinxing myself but I'm glad I have a solid "B" right now. I would imagine there are some that are failing the course based on those 2 quizzes. There were a few people who seemed really upset after class. On the one hand I feel bad for them, on the other hand I'm in competition with them for class rank so I hope they continue this trend. See? I'm a cuttthroat lawyer already. According to my calculations, I am either at the top of my class, tied for the top, or very very near the top -- like person 2 or 3. I figure this because I got a 6 on the first quiz, along with several others, and that was the top grade on that quiz. I got a 7 on the second quiz and only one person scored higher. So if that person also got a 6 on the first quiz they would be in the top. But if that person scored a 4 or lower I've got the top spot (or am tied for the top spot). If they scored a 5 we are tied. It's all very complicated and it makes my brain hurt. I wish I knew what everyone else got on both quizzes!!!!! I really, really, really want to be in the top 10% going into the Fall Semester, and in a class of 23 that means being in the top 2. I'm definitely working hard enough.

On a fun note, last night when Sule and Judah came to pick me up from school I brought Judah in to meet some of my classmates. Of course he won them over immediately because that's just how he is. I'm sure they'll be seeing a lot of each other for the next 4 years. I also noticed yesterday that he's getting another tooth! Right on the bottom next to the first one. Cuteness overload, and he isn't even too fussy. I'm so lucky to be this kiddos mom.

What a week!

I have been beyond frazzled and exhausted this week. Between changing my plans for school and deciding to get a job, Judah's teething, and a bunch of weird happenings, I'm just happy it is pretty much over. I still have to go to my old temp agency today to update my file, but after that I'm off until Monday. I have to say, Wednesday was the most interesting day of all. Wednesday afternoon, Sule called to tell me that he'd rescued a kitten outside his job and asked if I'd come and get it. I had no idea, and still have no idea, what we're going to do with this kitty. But I brought her home and she is extremely cute, and Judah thinks she's so fascinating! She was afraid of him at first but now they're best buds. So after rescuing a kitten, I had to prepare to go to school. The only problem was that both of the sitters I'd lined up weren't available. So I called my professor to tell him I'd be 15 minutes late, and decided to pick Sule up from work at 6 and that he would drop me off at class. We needed gas, but I asked him to wait until he dropped me off because I was already late. Yeah, that worked out great. We promptly ran out of gas on the highway 5 minutes from school. Because I thought we were just running out to get daddy and then going home, Judah was wearing his pajamas, no socks, and had no diaper bag. I win worst mommy of the day. What's ironic is that I had *just* told Sule that we should keep an extra bottle, formula, diapers and wipes in the car for emergencies. Of course I hadn't gotten around to doing that yet. So I missed class on Wednesday and was freaking out about Thursday's quiz. I did well on last week's quiz (6 out of 8, which was the highest grade anybody in the class got), but this week's was supposed to be short answer and the questions were much more difficult. I spoke to one of my classmates about what he'd reviewed, and I just did all my reading and hoped for the best. Lo and behold: a multiple choice quiz! And I rocked it out if I may say so myself. I'll be very surprised if I didn't get all 8 questions right. YAY!

Here are some pictures of Judah and kitty being cute.

Happy 8 Monthday Bug!

And he got a tooth as a Monthday present! After we dropped Sule off at work this morning Judah was a little fussy in the backseat, so I reached back and he was holding my hand. He put my finger in his mouth and bit it, and there was something really sharp in there. So as soon as we got home I checked, and sure enough there is something sprouting! I can't believe my baby is growing up so fast. He's well on his way to walking, drank water out of a straw yesterday (!), and now has a tooth. I remember being excited because he finally opened his eyes. It's so bittersweet!

After thinking really hard about going part time and having a long discussion with Sule weighing all the pros and cons, we've decided that is definitely the best course of action. The good thing is that my school is very lax about letting you go back and forth between the fulltime and parttime programs, so if things ever change in the future I can always go fulltime. We've also decided its in everybody's best interest that I get a job. So not only will I be working fulltime, I'll also be going to law school in the evenings. I'm having panic attacks about it (mostly about never seeing my Bean), but Su assures me that it's no different from him working his odd hours and Judah is still totally in love with Daddy. I talked over working fulltime with some classmates yesterday and they are all confident that we can do it. So at least I've got that. I'm trying to find out if they have some sort of organization or group for parttimers who work. Again, though, I'm very blessed to have a great support system. My dad wasn't keen on me working and going parttime, but once I explained that daycare costs are just not feasible on one income he understood, although I think he's contemplating keeping Judah himself during the day so that I can go fulltime! lol. They are already gaga for each other as it is. So I'm on a job hunt. Which sucks. And I can't help thinking that if we'd decided this before I could have been working this whole time!